One week ago today (Sept.28 th) Per and I were ready to get the DB ferry bound to Central as we had the two Hospital appointments at Queen Mary at 2pm that same afternoon…Little we knew it was going to be one of the longest and most emotionally draining afternoons of our lives.
These appointments were made back in the beginning of September (6th or 8th) when we visited the Dr. at the hospital and we decided to book for the C-section date (i had 2 previous c-sections so this birth had to be through another c-section). On that day (beginning of September), we agreed in booking the c-section for September 29th – 2 days before the Official Due Date – October 1st.
As we were approaching the Hong Kong Island, I knew more then ever that I was not ready to meet the Baby the next day. I was very committed to change the Birth Day to the 4th of October – considering the Hospital just perform elective c-sections on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. 1st and 2nd were PH, 3rd was a Tuesday so the only possible date would be the 4th of October – a Wednesday.
Well, we saw the Anesthetist 1st followed by a Dr. consultation. Loads of explanation and papers to read and to sign were given to us exactly because it was the eve of the operation. The more they explained to me, the more I knew I wanted to hold this Baby in as much longer as possible because i knew i did not want to go through everything i been through when Maya was born.
As I spoke to the 2nd Dr. and explained my concerns for the billionth time, I actually got happy with the suggestion she gave us. Talking to the Surgeon – She told us we had to go to K9 and wait a bit for the him/her…
There we went, Me my Bump, my Husband and my hopes.
We made ourselves to K9 which is actually the Department of Gynecologist and Obstetrics of Queen Mary’s Hospital, the place where me, you and other hundreds and thousands of women gave birth and hundreds and thousands of husbands/partners/parents/ family members waited impatiently for news and the exit of the beloved wife/gf/partner with the newborn Baby. On that floor, you have the labour rooms, the operation theatre, the triage rooms and beds were women in labour have to wait until they are ready to give birth. It was surprisingly calm!!
It was the 1st live experience we had with the real scenario…I got happy to see and experience it. We saw women arriving in labor with their anxious partners, we saw women in labour, we saw women in pain, we saw women that thought they were in labour, we saw women that were prepped for giving birth – either vaginally or by csection. It was a very real moment for all of us…but again, everybody was so calm and silent.
Minutes turned into long minutes and long minutes turned into hours…hours turned into 4 to 5 hours all together…until finally a Dr…Dr.Jon came to us (she just finished performing an emergency c-section hence the delay).
During the wait, i had endless talks with my Husband, we had to make final decisions We were exhausted, i had a massive headache, i just could not think anymore. At that moment i already have spoken to my midwife to hear her opinion. I was soo sure i wanted the baby out on Wednesday, and i knew i could do it too. Hubby was totally on the Doctors side…Have the Baby tomorrow.
As we spoke with the Dr. and after she express her concerns – me going into labour and the risk of an emergency c-section instead of a planned one, we finally agreed on pushing it to Wednesday. I got happy. At that point, another Doctor have joined the conversation and also heard me carefully and got my point. I was extremely impressed and surprised with the Doctors patience, calmness and support. No matter what, it made me very relaxed and confident that no matter the Day the Baby was going to be born, i was in good hands.
Dr. Jon was booking my c-section on the computer, for Wednesday the 4th when suddenly all hopes and efforts had gone through the window. The was no spot for me on Wednesday, I got so anxious that i could not fight anymore, i got emotional but managed to hold the tears…No matter what, i knew that i was going to meet my Baby the next day, and that gave me comfort and an unexpected peace. I know that i have tried till the end and knew i was in good hands too….The only date available for my operation was Friday, and that was definitely pushing it to the limit. I couldn’t do that.
“Let’s do it like this” – said the Dr. that came earlier to support Dr. Jon’s opinion – “it have been an intense day, go home, don’t think about it anymore and just do it as if you were coming to the operation tomorrow. Fast from 00, take you first pill at 23 and the other at 7am. Have your bag and documents ready and be here at 7 am as per the schedule. Either call us before 7 or just be here at 7 and let us know what you decided. If you want to postpone the surgery or if you are going through with the schedule. Is up to you to decide, just let us know”. I was impressed with the attitude once again. I was not expecting such caring and compassion from their side. They were great…Like he said, either way, no matter what I choose, they will be there to help me to deliver the Baby safely.
Both Per and I dragged ourselves to DB. Guess we were not home before 20pm…Girls were sleeping already and all I could do was stare at the walls and rub the tummy for the very last moments before going to sleep. I think I had a croissant and plenty of water. Our alarm clocks had to ring at 4.30am in order to get ready and leave the house at 5.45 so we wouldn’t be late for the 6 o’clock ferry. The helper was home just before 5.30.
Forget the sleep that night…I was up at 3.30am, still with a few doubts in my mind…Per was yet to hear the “let’s do it”…This was a very personal choice that nobody could interfere actually…just Per and I…I was still talking to Alba and Duarte (my sister in law and my brother) that because of the time difference were still awake. I was still so confused and tired of thinking, debating and arguing with myself and Per, that at 4.50 (less then an hour before we had to leave home and right at the time I needed to start getting ready I said: “ok, let’s do it, let’s have the Baby today”.
(this post was written 1 week after Baby Silke was born).
If you are wondering what you should do right after a workout…any work out including gym, running, cardio, fitness classes, spinning…of 20, 30, 60, 90, 120 minutes…Your workout may be over, but it’s not time to rest just yet.
Have a look:
The perfect post-gym routine is easier said than done. But how you handle those 30 minutes immediately following a sweat session is just as important as the workout.
Cool down, Stretch and Roll
A solid heart-pumping cardio workout means you’ve raised your heart rate close to your maximum (220 minus your age equals the recommended maximum beats per minute). So you need to do at least five minutes of light exercise to safely bring it back down to your resting heart rate (about 60 to 80 beats per minute). Whether you’re running, biking, swimming, or taking a cardio class, slowing down your pace for the last five minutes is the perfect cool down.
After, stretch while your muscles are still warm. You need to stretch before the muscles have time to cool down, which takes 30-40 minutes. When the muscle cools, it contracts, and if you try to loosen it up, you can cause injury. It’s recommended to do at least five minutes of stretching after a workout followed by five minutes of ironing out the kinks with a foam roller for proper recovery.
Depending on how intensely you exercised and how much you sweat, you need to replenish lost fluids to prevent dehydration and dizziness. Water is fine if you exercised for under an hour, but if your workout was much longer or you sweat a lot, go for a sports drink or recovery smoothies – Sattva Juicery’s Recovery Smoothies are made exactly for this purpose.
To figure out how much to sip, here’s a fun little trick: Weigh yourself before and after your workout. For every pound of water weight lost, replace it by drinking 16 to 20 ounces of water or sports drink. Another good way to monitor that you’ve gotten enough water is in the ladies room. If you have a large amount of light-colored urine, then you’re hydrated. If it’s dark, then you’ll know you need to drink more before, during, and after your workout. Sip your beverage slowly to help your body hydrate more quickly.
Change Your Clothes
Next, ditch your soggy sports bra and tights, even if you don’t have time to shower. If you can’t wash, get out of wet clothes as soon as you can as they trap moisture that encourages the growth of germs, bacteria, fungus and yeast, which could invite a skin infection or cause breakouts.
It won’t make a difference whether you change within two, five or 10 minutes, but don’t wait longer than a half hour.
If for some reason you can’t shower or you forget extra clothes, dampen a towel with water and patting your body, then pat with a dry towel to soak up as much moisture as possible in a pinch. Bacteria doesn’t stand a chance of multiplying if you remove the moisture.
If you’re especially worried about breakouts, it’s much more important to cleanse your face before exercise rather than after. Removing your makeup and washing your face or swiping with a cleansing wipe. Try tossing something that’s easy to use on-the-go in your gym bag.
Refuel for Recovery
Last—but certainly not least—make sure to take in some food within 30 minutes of your workout. That will optimize recovery, help reduce muscle soreness, and help you perform better during your workout the following day. The 30-minute window is the peak time for potential to start rebuilding and replenishing muscles.
If you’re exercising to lose weight, it seems counterproductive to eat after burning calories. But don’t worry — eating doesn’t cancel out the calories you just burned. That’s because while working out, your body burns fat for energy. The healthy calories you consume after a workout won’t replace that burned fat, they’re used to repair and refuel.
If you’re not due for a meal, your post-workout snack should be around 150 calories, and contain a bit of protein to help rebuild muscles and carbs to offer energy. Aside from basic snacks like these, you can get a little creative and whip up these homemade low-cal post-workout snacks. Eat immediately after your workout.
Happy and Healthy 2015 Everybody!!
Hope you started well 2015…the 1st month of 12 is almost over…Can you believe that X’mas was 1 month ago? How did your holidays go?Are you back to your normal routine?What about your New Year’s resolutions?I have done a few and so far i am sticking to them religiously.
I am so excited to finally resume my work out routine…My pregnancy weight is reaching it’s final days with 1.5 kg left! I am back with my running and cardio sessions too…PLUS my yoga sequences…i missed it so much!Glad i am finally back…the best part is that i am managing well to adjust my schedules with feeding Maya, run my Company and dedicate my full attention to my Family.
For the busy bees like myself, this month flew – again – Was so intense but so good and exciting that i can’t wait to see what February has in store for us.
Sattva Juicery is 100% operational with gaining more clients, followers, lovers and fans Every new day! The Juicery is back after a 2 month break and for a month the ladies haven’t done nothing else then Press and Advise !!The Journey has been amazing and the responde overwhelming.
2015 will be a year of new opportunities, new business, loads of travelling and loads of challenges too!We are packing our bags to visit the Middle East and Denmark in May, Spain and the South of Europe in July, August probably Bali and December somewhere nice and warm too….We can’t wait for that!!!I will make sure to Blog all about it…i will definitely take you with me in these fantastic Journeys.
Love and Stay Healthy
Wednesday, November 5th 2014.
It was a beautiful Autumn sunny morning. Typic of Macau at this time of the year. Chilled mornings and warm afternoons. In fact, the nicest day of the week as temperatures dropped and grey skies and rain ruled during the whole week.
Alarm rang at 7 am like always…and there i was…nervous, excited, anxious but with a sense of calmness at the same time. Said good morning to Hubby and gave a kiss to my 23 months old Daughter Sienna.
I sat down in bed, an rub my bump…wondering if that was going to be the last time i would rub it and feel the baby moving or, if i had another week in front of me/us. (i had 2 dates for my c-section, Nov.5th and the 12th).
Filled my lungs with air and stood up…went over my maternity bags, to make sure i was not forgetting anything, in case i was giving birth that day.
Messages from friends and family kept coming as they all new there could be a possibility of the baby be born that day.
We left home at 8:15am…Sienna was happy and in good mood…she was having breakfast while watching Princess Sofia…her fav. I left happy and confident that she was going to be fine.
The day Sienna was born, pictures were taken from everywhere…starting at the carpark. I thought about it for this time as well, but something was telling me that we coming back home after the Dr’s appointment at 9am. In fact, both Hubby and I were pretty convinced that another week would be given to us. I keep saying and thinking that i have been through everything during this pregnancy, and agree and confirm that no pregnancy is the same…Been through everything until the due date..not knowing exactly when the baby was going to be born…Was a mixed feeling as contraction couldn’t come and labour couldn’t start either…In normal cases you sit and wait,,,i call it the waiting game, specially when you pass the due date!In my case, and for the 2nd time: no labour, no contractions, no water breaking, no back pain…nothing…
Ride to the hospital was easy and smooth…Music playing in the background, talk was nice and again, the weather was very pleasant…was a nice pleasant morning.
As we arrive at the Hospital carpark, we did what we were told to do…enroll ourselves at the Urgency Entrance…from there, i started to panic a little bit….a whole dejavú scenario, hospital smell, i admit i had to give a few deep breaths and tell myself to stay calm. That 3rd floor where pregnant women/non pregnant women kept coming, the floor where decisions are made, the floor where good news and bad news are shared!The floor where anxious parents and families are waiting for the news…the delivery ward floor, the waiting room floor, the floor i was told that my 1st baby was going to be born, the floor i was told i had had a miscarriage, the floor i was told that that this 2nd baby had to be born today, otherwise i am putting into risk her and my health. What an emotional elevator ride, what an emotional morning….everything happened soo fast!
I saw my Dr. at 9 am…actually, i went in the consultation room 1st to answer the same old same old questions….Hubby had to stay outside, he had no idea what was going on. After that, my heart rate and baby’s heart rate had to be monitored…for 40min….i remember being laid in bed reading my book…what comfort me was that, and my Penhaligon’s perfume in my pashmina. Nurse – not very friendly – kept coming and going…After 40min, i was told to wait at the waiting room with my husband, since they would call me soon….After 5 min, “Mariana” was said…we both stood up and we were ready to see the doctor….to our surprise, it was a different Dr, that knew nothing about my history…we asked to speak with our dr. (i could even hear the nurse mentioning to call the Dr. as he had no idea of my pregnancy history)…he was even asking why i was going for a c-section!After a few minutes, my Dr. (i will never forget her name) finally showed up…we were so happy to see her…in fact, i saw her once while being monitored…
She took us to a private room, where we stayed for 30min.In this 30min she explained that she thought it was better i had the c-section today because she could see that i had a contraction during those 40min. Was a small one, but it was a contraction. My heart jumped.Both Hubby and i made a lot of question, the pros and cons of making a c-section before the Baby is at least 39 – 40 weeks,..etc..i couldn’t think. Dr. explained very patiently and very detailed the situation. The pros and cons of waiting another week etc…
I told the Dr, that i rather wait until the 12th…and she told me “my heart just sank”…of course is the patient’s decision…the Dr. is there to tell us what is the best…and like the nurse told me later: “when in doubt, always follow what the Dr. advise”. At some point, hubby and her were looking at me both telling me with their looks – have it today to save yours and your babies’ life. I knew i was being stubborn and not thinking logically…i knew they were right….but was a lot to take in at once. With me was very simple….since i got pregnant 1year and 2 months after a C-section, and with my placenta laying low, i couldn’t risk starting labour and contractions as this could result in uterine rupture. Since there was already a contraction, why risk?why risk Mariana?
After 30min…i said “ok, let’s do it today”!Baby with no name yet was going to be born today!Smiles and words of encouragement were given. I was safe in her hands…nervous but i knew i was safe. Filled my lungs with air again, and couldn’t stop thinking about the fact that in a few hours i would be cuddling my little bundle of joy.
Paper work was filled, details were given…we asked when the surgery would happen…It was exactly 10.30…Dr. said, we will try to do before lunch time, we need to contact the whole team and see if the theater is available.
We went outside and start making calls to Family…Father and Sisters. I was nervous, with tears rolling in my eyes, i was anxious, i was happy but extremely hummmmm not disappointed…i was a little bit upset with giving birth at 38weeks +…All Drs. guarantee that the baby is full term and healthy. There was nothing to fear about. They explained that keeping the baby for longer would make the baby bigger and the lining thinner…so i kept thinking about our safety. Again, why risk a uterine rupture?!
At 11:05 i hug hubby, again with tears of joy and anxiety rolling…pictures were taken and there i entered in the delivery ward for them to prep me for a c-section. I knew the drill, i knew all the steps…i knew everything as if it was yesterday that i gave birth to Sienna…The image of a c-section and the whole prep kept crossing my mind since the first day i learned i was pregnant BUT it was more real, the moment i arrived at the hospital…i guess that was quite disturbing also…it was like a movie playing…i was telling myself “now they will do this, now they will do that”…the feeling of going in with a bump and leave with an empty one, the corridors, the nurses, the changing of beds, the lifts…all in my head.
What made me calm as soon as i arrive at the delivery ward?hearing a baby crying. I told to myself.,in a few hours i will hear mine crying and everything would be over…I dried my tears, deep breaths in and said “let’s do it”. gave myself in.
Wanted to see hubby one last time before, but i couldn’t as i was going to follow the internal corridors until the theater. Meanwhile, the Dr. saw me again, hold my hand, tried to calm me down and said everything was going to be fine…
11:10 it was the time they wrote in my i.v. bandaid….at 11.22 i entered the theater with familiar faces and nurses speaking portuguese. This time, i was speaking with the nurses, i shared a smile when i saw a familiar face, we spoke…I paid attention to the room, the green room, i saw the machines around..i really wanted to see how things were done…the team was calm, speaking normally, sharing laughs, talking about the next patient…it was a normal wednesday morning for them..i tried to keep myself calm too…but everything changed a little bit after…when i couldn’t understand why it took 6 tries to make the spinal anesthesia work..i was nervous, in pain, in a uncomfortable position, everybody telling me not to move/talk when i was not doing any of that!!!it was traumatic…
I won’t go into details of the c-section…i can just tell that this time was way more painful then the first. Not painful but more uncomfortable, more feelings, more sensitivity, more a lot of things then with the 1st one…Maybe i was more aware this time, my body been through it before…i don’t know…need to see why it was more challenging this time around. Next day i woke up so sore that i couldn’t move naturally…i could only move to the sides and with a lot of effort – wanted to breasted so bad!
The moments i will never forget during the c-section:
- The nurse holding my hand, comforting me, telling everything was fine..
- The Dr. telling me that i did the right choice in having the operation that day as my uterine lining was very thin
- The moment the nurse told me my baby was going to be born
- 12:02 – the time my baby was born and it was showed to me in the mids of smiles and congratulations. i had tears of joy – only joy and happiness rolling my eyes…
- She was shown to me 2 times and in this 2 times i thought she looked just like me.
- The moment the operation was finally over and i said my thanks your to everyone..i was o grateful for having such amazing team of Dr. and nurses with me until the end…also apologized for the screaming and unsettlement.
Once operation was done, i went to the observation room, where the nurse handed her phone to call hubby…he was soo surprised i called, i had no voice of energy to talk…i just told him we were fine and everything was over. I don’t think he had seen the Baby by that time..While Moms stay at the observation room, the Babies go to the Maternity ward on the 2nd floor.…i believe it was 12:45 and the nurse told me to tell him to go and have some lunch and comeback after 1h….aiii it was over…:) and i could see my daughter. Another extremely painful procedure was made there at the observation room, to make sure everything was sealed properly…that was pain…pure pain that i won’t forget.
During the 1h observation i spoke with the nurse..so nice, so grateful, words can’t describe….i rested, and rub my bump…that feeling of emptiness made me a bit sad but so relief and happy that we were both fine…operation went perfectly…so why be sad at that stage?I sent that thought away and filled my body with beautiful thoughts, positive energies and vibrations….maybe that’s why i left the hospital after 3 days?maybe that’s why my recovery is going so well and fast…maybe that’s why i managed to stand up, wash myself and breastfeed with no problems the 24h after…i don’t know, i can’t tell. The fact i had to come home to my Baby Sienna and Hubby also contributed and keep contributing for my fast recovery.
Maya, is her name. The decision was done while i was having cirgury..My Family was there, waiting for me, saying that Maya is beautiful, a Star, a Sparkle, a Princess, Perfect Perfect…i couldn’t wait to hold her in my arms and tell her how much i love her.
She was born with 47cm, and with 2.855kg…smaller than Sienna but a fighter just like her Sister. She is beautiful, perfect and healthy!
The moment i held Maya for the 1st tie in the middle of pain and joy, tears and happiness is that moment that i will treasure for life and the moment Sienna saw her Sister for the first time was priceless…such a loving and meaningful moment for all of us.
Giving Birth is definitely – in my opinion – the most beautiful and painful moment in a women’s life. You can’t control your hormones and feelings that are pretty mixed. You are in pain but it’s a pain for love. You feel joy and happiness but at the same time there is fear and pain, tears of excitement are mixed with tears of pain! Once you put your baby in the world you forget all about what you have been through, because the feeling of having your baby in the arms make it all soo worth it and for me, i know i would be through it all over again with no doubts!Such a a beautiful and magical Moment of our lives.
After 3 days, we were told we could go home. The new life as a parent of 2 under 3 was soon to begin!!
We are all in love with her. Now everybody is asking when is the boy arriving? Well, i promised the nurse that i would wait at least 18months-2 years to get pregnant again :)…Is Hubby onboard?not really but, i can always hope and wish for a 3rd one!
We’ve seen how to Detox the Mind. Now we focus on how to Detox your Soul.
Have a look at these simple instructions below…No need to “try” them all at once, but be mindful and be open to a change!!Try to change one at a time and be patient with yourself…
1. CLEAN UP
To deepen our practice, we must physically and emotionally create space for it to happen..and we know how difficult it is when surrounded by clutter and emotions.
After decluterring your space, put up photographs of family, friends, special moments, in order to create a feeling of happiness in your home. Hang a nice mirror on the wall to refelct light and light candles – love it! These adds warmth and comfort.
Now that your environment is organized and peacful, take time to ckear your mind.
If you are beginning, follow this simple instruction. That’s how i started:
“Find a comfotable crossed leg seated position. Light a candle and stare gently into the flame…breathing slowly through the nose.
Immerse your whole being in a feeling of loving peacfullness. Evertyme your mind/thoughts distract you, bring your focus back to the flame”.
2. THANK YOUR LUCKY STARS
Greeting with Gratitude
Gratitude is key to spiritual development and soon shifst you from stress to serenity.
Close your eyes, slow your breathing and still your mind (rememebr the candel flame).
Slowly, start sending humble thoughts of gratitude to your Superior Power. Don’t let your mind interfere.
Complaining is ungrateful and disrespectful. Try to catch yourself everytime you are about to moan – and stop yourself.
Practice daily and you will feel new levels of peacfullness within.
3. PRACTICE PEACE
Ignore your inner judge
All negative self-talk is a subtle form of violence – towards yourself and the universe. Free yourself.
When we bitch, insult someone, hate…we are adding to the darkness in the world and diminishing our spiritual light. Try your best to speak only kind, praising words. If is going to offend or hurt…don’t say it.
Forgivness is a divine quality that transmutes negative blocks, leads to healing on all levels of your being and balances your karma.
Increase your self love with a forgivness affirmation. Out loud or in your mind repead mentally “i forgive myself and all others”.
Nature is a powerful healer – yey!!!
Harness its power to keep you balanced and progressing on your path.
5. SLOW DOWN
As the indian spiritual master Meher Baba says ” A mind that is fast is sick. A mind that is slow is sound. A mind that is still is divine”.
When someone is talking to fast it’s hard to figure what they are saying. It’s the same with the Divine and us. If there’s constant chatter in our minds, we struggle to hear the guidance needed to deepen our spiritual practice.
Whatever it is that you do too fast – talk or walk or eat – consciously slow your self down. Be gentler and watch your energy.
6. HEAL AND BE HEALED
Spread the Love
Healing is a powerful frequency, it is love flowing through us from the transcendent non-physical realms. We can all heal. Sit quietly and visualise sending light to your chosen recipient.
7. PURIFY YOURSELF
Cleanse your Karma – how powerful is this?
The spiritual path is wisely viewed as a process of “cleaning up” – where we make amends for our unspiritual behavior (bad karma) by overcoming our sinful behaviors with loving ones.
8. DO YOGA!!!!!!!
We know why ;).
9. READ A GOOD BOOK
Find a new book that feeds your soul. Spend some time browsing in a bookstore and seeing what calls to you. Find a beautiful, peaceful place to relax and read.
10. GET CREATIVE
Be intent on intention
Creativity encourages a positive energy flow and deepens our fulfill connection to the unique gifts bestowed on us by the universe. Feeling stuck, on the other hand, is a sign that you’re blocking the limitless possibilities the universe wishes to bless you with.
Harness the creative of power of your mind by holding the intention to deepen and enrich your spiritual practice.
Arrow-like intentions are more powerful than wants wishes and hopes. Be sure yours are pure.
11. LOVE DEEPLY
Send good vibrations
Love is the antithesis of selfishness, jealousy and al behaviors that keep us in the illusion of separateness from the spirit of unconditional love within us. To deserve love, we must give love.
Sit comfortably, close your eyes and let your mind settle.
Imagine a loved one or someone you know is having a tough time.
As you hold them in your mind’s eye, visualize sending them loving vibrations from your heart for a few minutes.
Show your Care
Generosity and kindness are forms of love.
Give your time to help someone in need or set up a standing order to a cause close to your heart.
12. PROTECT YOURSELF
Strengthen your psyche
Help eke yourself safe from psychic attack from lower entities and other people’s negativity by closing your eyes, stilling your mind and focusing on your third eye – between your eyebrows. Visualise a clear white light surrounding you and telepathically sask the Divine to protect you.
13. BE JOUYFULL
Fantasize about Fun
Mystics say that laughter is a music to God’s ears. Before getting out of bed, sit up, close your eyes and visualize yourself dancing on a sunny beach for example!!!Feel uplifted
Turn up your favorite tune and dance around your room or house – that’s my saturday and sunday morning ritual!!
Choose to be happy and enjoy a wonderful, blissful future!